Trip Like I Do

Emotional Control

It’s been a week or 2 since my breakdown and I am feeling a lot better now. 

So much less drama in my life.   I’m still annoyed a bit, and I find myself wanting to reach out to the very person who hurt me someties, but I stop myself, so I won’t have that pain again. 

I’ve coe to a couple of conclusions about my situation too.  I’ve realized I too much of a chicken shit to actually do anything about it right now, so I will just suffer in silence some more. 

I’m still really worried about my mom. Despite what she says, having a sore not heal for 2 months is not a good thing.  I still find it amusing that she stopped asking e for help with her bandages simply because I told her I need her to be on a schedule snd that I can’t just come running to help her when she feels like it. 

I just, I know life isn’t easy.   I just wish things would go my wat sometimes.

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December 15, 2011

Breakdown

I’ve been meaning to write something for a few days now, but just could never get the time, or maybe the courage to do so. 

I’m just not doing all that well emotionally right now.  I’ve got a lot of stress in my life and I am having a really hard time dealing with it all.  

I had a breakdown at work last week and I was a complete wreck.    I couldn’t stop crying for 2 hours and at one point, I felt like I was going into shock.  

I just don’t know what to do anymore.   I’m overwhelmed at work, I’m overwhelmed at home, I’m a little heart broken and just so unhappy with a lot of stuff.  

I need a vacation, a real vacation, but can’t really afford to do anything right now.   Shit, even going to a neighbor island for a weekend would be close to $500, I think.  

I just feel like my whole life is a mess right now.

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December 6, 2011