ZOMG! It’s An Update!
June 23, 2010
I’m sitting here, staring at my monitor, sipping on a diet beverage, listening to thumping techno music, thinking about playing with my blog themes, technology, software, thinking about sleep and trying to figure out what to write.
It’s been months – MONTHS! – since I’ve written anything. Life just kind of at me and I no longer felt compelled to write anything. Well, that and my obsession with World of Warcraft, but that’s a different story……..
What have I been up to? Well, work, work, did I mention work? and World of Warcraft. Damn that game!
I survived another session – HURRAY! – and well, things have finally slowed down at work – which is incredibly nice. This week has been like heaven so far. Both of my co-workers are on vacation and my boss hasn’t been coming in all that much lately. I had the whole office all to myself today and it was just glorious! I could work at my own pace, no interruptions, no ASAP’s being thrown my way. It was great. I am hoping the rest of the week is similar to today, although I know that tomorrow/today will not be. But dammit, I am going to enjoy it while it lasts.
It does get rough at work sometimes. The workload my boss gives us is, well, completely overwhelming a lot of times. We do our best to keep up, but it’s really easy to fall behind on a lot of stuff. It used to bother me a lot – it still does actually – but I’ve almost come to terms that no matter what, I will most likely never get caught up. So, I try not to stress too much about it all, even though I still do. I don’t know how one of my co-workers does it though. She will still work 10 hour days, to try to get caught up, even though we both know that no matter what we do, we will not get caught up.
I’m hoping the rest of the summer stays slow for us until this big event in October comes around, but until then, I will try to take it easy, and not worry too much. Okay, I’m just telling myself that right now in the hopes that I really, truly, believe it one day. A girl can dream dammit!
I’ve really let things go in my life over the last couple of years though. A lot of that had to do with my gaming obsession and part of it was just depression I think. I used to think I was even more fucked in the head than I really am though. After I don’t know how many years, and with the help of my phone, I just came to recognize how much my hormones affect me. I mean, I knew that I would get bad PMS, and it would hit me and I wouldn’t realize I was having PMS until a few days before my period actually hit. But now that I have a decent period tracker on my phone, whenever I start to feel a bit out of it, or not myself, I can just refer to it and it really has helped me understand just how much my hormones affect me.
But this year, I’ve made a conscious effort to eat better and exercise more. I finally cut out most of the junk food I had been eating over the last 2 years. I do slip every once in awhile, but at least I’m not eating that crap as often as I used to. I even started exercising again. Well, okay, I used to exercise pretty regularly up until 2 months ago. I’m trying to get motivated to start again, but it’s going slowly. I’m toying with the idea of a fitness blog again, but I really don’t know if I have the discipline or the ability to be as honest as I need to be. I’m still thinking about it, so I am not writing it off just yet.
I’m also still working on time management and pretty much failing at that right now. I get so easily distracted sometimes or just don’t want to do the things that I know I should be doing – like cleaning. I’m really disappointed in myself because of that. It’s definitely something I need to work on. I’m such a procrastinator, I really want to change that.
I still have major self esteem issues and that’s also something I want to work on, but just don’t know how. I should probably see a therapist or something. I don’t know.
It’s late, I’m starting to get a headache. I think I should get to bed.
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