Trip Like I Do

Grrrrr

February 20, 2007

I am writing this on my Mom’s computer because well, my computer is hosed.  Crap.  My computer had been running kind of slow sometimes and I was getting a ton of error messages, so I figured I would format and reinstall.  Cool, no problem – I’ve done that on multiple machines before without incident – until now.

I reinstalled windows – error message.  Okay, I formatted and reinstalled and I would get error messages that I needed to insert the windows cd – the cd that I had in my cd rom drive that it was copying stuff off of before.  Grrr.  Okay, so I format and reinstalled again – and the installation would freeze while it was going through the set up and then I would get memory dump errors and messages telling me to uninstall any hardware I added since it might be causing some kind of conflict.  It’s a fucking laptop!  I can’t really install new hardware in it, since it’s a fucking laptop.  I mean I guess I could swap out the hard drive and ram, but my ram is already maxed out and came with the machine and I haven’t made any other changes – since it’s a fucking laptop!

I am going to try it one more time with it hooked up directly to the modem to see if maybe I am getting some error messages because I need some kind of windows update I am currently not able to download while I am installing the OS and not all of the drivers yet.  Grrr.  Otherwise even though I am pretty sure I know what is going on, I am at the point where I just want to take the damn thing to a shop and have them deal with it.

I am starting to feel pretty stressed out I guess.  This whole family thing is really stressing me out.  Okay, Mom and I live at my Grandma’s house and the rest of the family live on the mainland.  Cool.  What is really stressing me out though is that even though Mom and I don’t own the house, it’s still our home because we live here and my Aunt does have a right to be here and help out because she is my Grandma’s other daughter, but….  It’s really starting to piss me off because they are acting like they own the place and aren’t being very considerate.

Like, I know my Aunt is here to help out and help clean up and stuff, but I had a bag of recent bank statements and letters in the room that they are staying in and I had that bad in there because I knew that we were going to need those documents when we went to the lawyer.  Okay, so I guess my Aunt wanted something to do, so she went through those and well, mixed them all up so I had no idea where they were for when we had to meet with the lawyer today.

I put a bunch of stuff in the storage closet that was going to be my bedroom to get them out of the way and because some of the stuff that I put down there were some personal items that I didn’t want anyone to go through.  My uncle disappeared and then all of a sudden I see them coming out of the closet with the dresser I wanted to get out of there and well, they had gone through a bunch of that stuff without telling me.  I had one of my framed “art” pictures in there that I didn’t want anyone to see, but when I went in there, – well – there it was in plain view.  Grrrr.

My cat would also go in there basically to hide from the kids and so the kids decided to go in there and try to play with the cat.  Now, first of all I didn’t want the kids to go in there because there is a lot of dust and mold in there and I didn’t want them to get sick.  There are also boxes and boxes of pictures down there and well, just a lot of stuff that they shouldn’t play with, but they went in there and their parent’s didn’t stop them or ask if it was okay for them to go in there.  I didn’t realize how long they were in there too until I saw that they took the entire basket of cat toys in there and they were all on the floor there.  Grrr.

I don’t know.  Maybe I am feeling overprotective of everything because I do live here and I am the one who knows the most about Grandma’s accounts and stuff, so maybe I am just wishing that they would ask first instead of just going through things like nothing here is ours.

It’s just the little things that are really frustrating and annoying.

Tonight’s been a bad night too.  I was going to go to the post office to mail some letters and I heard something weird.  It sounded like something was dragging under the car.  I got out to investigate and lo and behold – one of the tires is flat.  Great.  Just great.  I wanted to try to change it, but I couldn’t even get the fucking hubcap cover off the wheel.  My cousin Jeff is home, so he could help me, but he’s sleeping and I don’t know when he might wake up since I have a feeling that his heavy sleeping is because he’s an uncontrolled diabetic and his blood sugar is high.  My uncle and other cousins went to dinner at a friend’s house and should be back soon, so they should be able to change it in a few minutes when they get back.

Ugh, tomorrow should be interesting too.  We are going to have lunch at a semi fancy place and I just know that they are not going to like the place because the food is going to be too different for them.  We are going to go to Alan Wong’s Pineapple Room and I think that is probably one of my favorite restaurants here, but I think the fusion might be too much for them.  Oh well, too bad.  Afterwards we are going to go see the stockbroker, so that should be interesting.

I just want some peace and quiet in the house so I can really get down to business and start working on things and getting rid of unnecessary paperwork around here.

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